Alright so check it out....Today at work was out working in the field doing repairs for some customers. So during my first job which took the better half of my day, I was at a customers house and this lady was really nice very talkative (which is something I'm not). So as the time went on, hearing her talk and ask me questions, and me giving yes and no answers and nodding my head and going huh huh, she tells me "Your not a very talkative person are you"? ...lol...And this got me thinking hmm?? Yea i am not a very talkative person, I'm not a people person. I keep a distance from people i dont know. There is very few ill open up to and act somewhat normal but most of the time I like to keep to myself, keep my thoughts, rants and raves to myself. Am I wierd? Yea probaly. *blank* ok I just went blank and dont know what to type no more..I dont even know where im going with this...Oh Well...Music Is What Keeps Me Sane....

Alright so today i get home from work eat dinner, Kick it with the kids...jump on myspace...then i go into the garage and see a pile of drums and drum hardware..My pile of drums and drum hardware!! Then i realized what the heck i havent been practicing like i should..The reason my stuff is in a pile cause this past "halloween" weekend i did two shows with two different bands and when it came time to unload i dumped em in my garage! And there they sit!! You know what i hate setting up my drums and breaking em down!! Maybe i should down size?? nah I like lots of hardware and cymbals it looks cool :)...Anyway so yea practice makes permanent! Until recently i used to practice 1-2 hours EVERYDAY....Now these past couple of weeks ill just practice when its band practice..WHY!!! Arrgggg eefff that tomorrow im on it yo!!! hahaha Just hope something comes out of it...Other than that today was cool that weird feeling i mentioned yesterday came today at 11 am..(yea i timed it!!) Was standing there and felt nervous or something!! I looked at the clock and noted it!! Then i asked God under my breath are you trying to tell me something..i used to get these feelings 5-6 years ago when i had a deep relationship with God. I hear him calling from time to time but ignore it....am i wrong for doing this yea probaly...been thinking bout reading some word but dont wanna look phony....idk its all complicated!! my lifes complicated!! Music keeps me sane.....

Alright so i decided to start doing this blog thing to give some random thoughts i have about life music how my day went etc etc.....Past couple of days been feelin kinda weird..dont know where this feeling came from! It kinda came from behind and jumped on my back!! Still not sure if its a negative or positive feeling..Is it God?? Is something gonna happen?? Or is something going on in my body giving me this weird feeling?? I dont know but it makes me nervous. So i think ima wait it out and see what happens. Been doing tons of thinking of my current events going down in my life..Seems like there is not enough hours in the day to accomplish stuff!! Is it my lack of keeping a schedule?? Whatever but im hoping to crawl outta this hole ive been in for some time now. Music is what keeps me sane.